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Men with strongly Subtle tendencies typically have acute difficulties in relating to the opposite sex.

Women tend to be  more socially oriented than men and this can be a huge obstacle for the least social of men who are also the least social human beings.

Relating to women is difficult because the highly social ‘girly girl’ is the polar opposite of a Subtle man.  She is a creature of brightness, daylight, and fleeting passions while the Subtle man loves the safety of shadow, anonymity, and long term devotion.

If we envision a visible human spectrum, we could suppose we could find extremes in the infrared and ultraviolet.   The most socially grounded females in the ultraviolet range, the least socially grounded men in the infrared.   Ultraviolet females are a challenging personality for even the most social men when it comes to sustaining relationships, but their tendencies often seem to actually facilitate finding relationships in the first place.  While there is most definitely intense competition amongst females, getting cut out of the gene pool entirely by competitors isn’t a huge concern like it is for men.  An infrared male on the other hand has a huge disadvantage without any section of the female population to match his temperament.  He lacks an asset, an edge possessed by all other males.

It is thus easy for an introvert man to come to the conclusion that he hasn’t the slightest thing in common with women and has very little place for them in his life.

On the other hand, a Subtle man is still a man.  One of his strongest instincts is to desire a woman in his life.  A life without sex and physical affection is difficult and lonely.

When it comes to girls, he is torn between the anger seeping from his lifetime of emotional scar tissue and his annoyingly unkillable hope for intimacy, love, and acceptance.

Thus we have the Girl Conundrum that is the torment of introverted guys everywhere.

Solution #1 – PUA

Many introvert men notice that they have never had success with women and they decide they need to change.  Who do they need to become?  The pickup artists who can seduce girls whenever they want, of course.  The PUA community promises access to what was inaccessible, power instead of helplessness, and even vengeance intead of being trampled underfoot.  All these together form an irresistible formula and indeed many gurus of pickup claim to have once been average frustrated guys with no ‘game.’   Indeed, many outcasts find a home in this place.  This community has lots of philosophy and insight about human nature.  It’s an exciting, stimulating place to be for bright, outcast men.  There’s nothing to lose and no reason not to take as much from women as possible.  After all, every introvert man has seen numerous times from his low ranking position how awfully, how truly condescendingly girls treat anyone they consider beneath them.  He has no reason to offer any mercy or concessions.  He would rather just be himself, but her unfortunately outdated packet of instincts precludes honesty.   Against a lifetime of isolation and struggling for survival at the very bottom, the realpolitik philosophy of pickup makes sense.

Unfortunately it still doesn’t resolve the Girl Conundrum.  Provided someone gets somewhere with PUA tactics, that’s definitely an improvement over isolation, but all the same issues remain.   Reducing women down to a packet of instincts hardly fosters respect for them and yet he still has that desire for love and acceptance with a woman he respects and trusts.  His desires remain in contradiction.  Some introverted guys understandably relegate ‘loving relationships’ to the trash heap of other outright lies and unhelpful advice they’ve been given all their lives.  Their anger is strong, but they would love nothing better than to learn that they’re mistaken.  They remain torn between hate and hope.

I never got into the pickup community, but I definitely read some PUA works and benefited from them.   For some people it takes the almost mechanical pragmatism of these books to awake from the reigning politically correct gender feminist garbage.  It’s potentially a step in the right direction.   Two out of four stars.

Solution #2 – MRA

I didn’t know these guys existed until I looked for them on the internet.  A few years ago, I’d just returned from a foreign country where the girls had been much nicer and I was experiencing severe reverse culture shock in my home country.  Surely someone had noticed that girls here were impossible!  I entered search terms into google, probing for anyone out there who might have had the same thoughts.  To my surprise there was a lively community of men who are tired of the contempt and disrespect that men regularly receive from women and the feminist establishment.  Unsurprisingly, a good portion of these men seem to be introverts, who have seen mostly the very worst of the opposite sex.

For me, MRA writings have done more than any other source to get rid of cultural baggage and put maleness in its proper perspective.  They have a broad focus and explain methodically with statistics how gender relations work in aggregate across entire societies.  The system revealed by their analysis is one of stark injustice that stems from both the facts of biology and social expectations.  MRA writers like to patiently and systematically point out all the ways that women are in fact privileged.  One comes away from such reading with higher confidence and with lesser need to put women on a pedestal.  However, this literature doesn’t endear women to the reader or bring one much closer to a loving relationship.  Girl conundrum unsolved.  Yet it is vital in teaching men how not to be exploited by the opposite sex.  MRA writers provide a plan for independence from women, an end result they persuasively argue will benefit both sexes.  This is not the solution to the problem, but it is most definitely a gateway and enabler.  Four out of four stars.

Solution #3 – Use A Prostitute

Continued in the next post

College is very much a socialite environment.
It’s hard to get admitted without lots of clubs and extracurricular activities on your record.
It’s tough to be socially accepted without getting drunk and partying like everyone else.

If looking for true friends, watch closely for people who:
-avoid the party scene
-spend more time in their dorm room than out of it
-bear the marks of eccentricity when you talk to them (unusual mannerisms or word choice)
-are quiet and go out of their way to appear very ordinary, who would escape your notice if you weren’t watching for them.
-aren’t very expressive when you first meet them.
-always keep their drapes/blinds shut

These are hallmarks of someone who might be living under the surface.
Of the candidates you find, a couple might be what you’re looking for. College is ruled by extroverts. True introvert friends, unfortunately, are hard to find.

One way I check for people with compatible interests is to make a joke or in reference about something only someone who spends lots of time around books will know. Social people shrug it off as nonsense and soon forget. The right sort of person gets it and responds at once. It is a means of broadcasting.

When a Loud person asks you a question it is best to give a quick, snappy, truthful answer.
Directly stonewalling or displaying reluctance to answer personal questions from someone you don’t trust yet is sure to get very negative reactions in the workplace and other social environments.
Ironically, the ‘friendly’ questions that many extroverts ask are only friendly if you answer them to their satisfaction and do it quickly.

When someone asks a series of questions, what you learn from one question leads to the next question. So be truthful, but brief; snappy, yet vague. Just neglect to give them anything that would allow them to continue inquiring.
I needn’t be the whole truth. The answers only need be something that can be construed as true.

The key is that short, vague, honest answers are boring answers. Most extroverts assume that someone who gives a boring first impression is in fact boring. 90% of them will leave you alone if you can convince them you are socially acceptable but boring.
The main thing is to stop the questioning quickly. Once they start asking detailed questions about the latest pop stars, tv shows, fashion trends, sports cars, and athletes, the game’s up.
Once they start giving you stories about their favorite experiences at night clubs and other social venues, they will start to notice that you aren’t responding with your own equally thrilling anecdotes.
At some point they pause in between their sentences and say “Wow, you’re really quiet.”

Unfortunately, there’s the 10% of truly Loud people who don’t go away no matter how uniform you can make yourself. Worst of all, there’s authority figures and important people to whom you can’t afford to give any kind of bad impression.

When a Loud person with power over your life or your job starts asking ‘friendly’ questions, the unmitigated truth could be devastating. Boring answers could cost you their good graces. There’s no easy way out of this one, which is just one reason why introverts aren’t usually going to rise to the top in an organization. It takes the touch of a social expert to figure out what the lead extrovert wants to hear and how he or she wants to hear it.

Not likely.

Extroverts are very, very good at what they do. Competitive social interaction is what they have a talent for, what they’re passionate about, and what they put all of their time and energy into.
It is a daydream for many introverts to outmaneuver the Loud people who cause them so much trouble. However, this isn’t so far off from imagining climbing into a boxing ring with limited experience and beating up a professional. This is why it generally stays a daydream. Chances are, if we actually climb into that ring, that we’ll lose.

To succeed in throwing one’s weight around a different strategy is required.

Why didn’t we become experts in social interaction? In part because we have to devote all our time to be good at it. As introverts, we chose to focus on other skills and areas of knowledge.

Extroverts are extreme specialists. There’s one social setting or society that they have mastered through countless hours of practice. It’s the thing they do.
All an introvert has to do is change the game that’s being played and the extrovert is helpless.

One who is defined by society operates by strict parameters that they expect everyone else to share. So much so, that they find it discordant and jarring whenever basic assumptions or conventions are violated. Much of an introvert’s life is spent warding off extrovert knee jerk responses to unconventionality.
These knee jerk responses can also be taken advantage of because they are predictable.

Any given extrovert will try to take your measure according to their narrow concept of how someone should behave. It is amazingly easy to confound all their attempts to figure out your intentions. I hardly even have to try since I operate by very different motives and assumptions to begin with. By playing around a bit with what I choose to reveal or conceal, I can cause confusion. When someone is confused by me, it can give me a lot of room to maneuver. The response to confusion is often hostility. Hostility can be very useful if it causes the extrovert to ‘punish’ you by giving the silent treatment or by avoiding you altogether.
The person in question can’t be too important or long term. This tactic is best used to outmaneuver or neutralize someone who is temporarily in your life. It’s a smokescreen useful for keeping someone noisy and nosy off your back until you move on to the next thing. While they’re busily prevaricating trying to figure out what you’re up to, you do whatever it is you want.

For longer term involvements, it is wiser to play the Iago game. Extroverts expect people to wear their emotions on their sleeve. They make all their judgment calls by gauging emotions in others. It’s another predictable trait that can be exploited.
All my life, I have had to publicly conceal my true feelings and make active display of emotions I do not feel just to survive. Even when an extrovert greatly angers me, I know how to keep my displeasure under wraps. It doesn’t occur to most extroverts that someone who is angry would not assertively make their feelings known. Thus, an introvert has the advantages of secrecy and surprise. If desired, they can wage a war the that the other side isn’t even aware of.

The wise introvert can reap all the advantages of even the most abrasive extrovert’s social expertise while undercutting or sabotaging them when they inevitably get demanding and pushy. Just set them up with distractions or difficulties whenever needed. Stimulus begets reactions. Extroverts simply tend to respond before they stop to think things through. Their attention is easily diverted, even minor setbacks cause them lots of stress and eat up lots of their energy. If you’ve ever seen how an extrovert reacts to not being able to find a single misplaced item, imagine misplacing one of their belongings every time they were rude and aggressive. If they cannot be civil, simply keep them spinning on a hamster wheel somewhere until they are needed.

If there must be games, the most important thing is to not to play in the extroverted realm. That is a sure way to lose.
Better strategies are:

-Changing the rules
-Hiding the rules
-Obfuscation/distraction
-Hide intentions
-Hide the conflict itself so the other side takes all the punishment
-Be inconspicuous, don’t attract attention
-If one must engage, always do so in a place that is unfamiliar and disorienting to the extrovert. Extrovert social mastery only applies to the cultures and environments they know.

Perhaps these tactics sound manipulative or even a little evil? Not very sportsmanlike? Never forget that an extrovert will happily crush you and grind you into the floor in an open confrontation. They are professional fighters. They constrict, annoy, and oppress even when they’re trying to be nice. Introverts resort to alternate tactics because they’ve been left with no other choice. The objective is not retribution so much as it is simple survival. An introvert is happy if simply left alone. The extrovert on the other hand grabs for ever more power. At some point it is necessary to take self-defense measures or else be exterminated.
For an introvert, life can seem like war with everyone else and just making through a day often feels like a battle. If there must be war, personal autonomy must be preserved by any means necessary.
Fortunately, much conflict can be eliminated simply by living under the surface and doing whatever necessary to avoid attracting attention in the first place.
Avoidance is the best course of action
If that’s not possible, secrecy.
Never forget that if the conflict comes to light, society is on the extrovert’s side.

To comfortably share an abode with a Subtle sort of person, one must extend but one basic principle to all dealings:

-Reduce social obligation and friction of association.

I must begin by explaining the difference of one’s room to the introvert and the extrovert.

For an extrovert, a room is a place to crash in between episodes of social activity. It’s just a tool required for basic rest and shelter.

For the introvert, one’s room is home, sanctuary, and all important private kingdom. One who is Subtle deals with a world that neither accepts nor understands their ways. The room is often the one place in the world where they can really feel safe and relaxed.

An extroverted roommate is one of the introverted person’s greatest fears: The fear that one who is grounded in the orthodox society brings that society with them into the room, effectively eliminating the last haven.

For an introvert, being forced to immerse in the hostile society even in their home is one of the greatest imaginable violations. I imagine that many an extrovert has found themself with an introverted roommate who was constantly surly, closed, and hostile, seemingly without reason.

Some intial steps:
-Keep your movies and music on headphones unless you’re both explicitly watching or listening to it.
-Don’t snap fingers, tap, clap, or slap your knees while listening to music/movies. These noisy antics are worse than second hand smoke.
-For phone calls, take the cell phone out in the hallway, and don’t talk loudly, especially to someone who’s not actually in the room. Extremely rude!
-Don’t make your room an entertaining center for groups of friends, especially not late at night or while all of you are drunk. If you wish for peace with an introvert, just bring in one or two friends at a time and don’t pursue any particularly loud or obtrusive activities. Asking permission, negotiating first will get you far. Actually, just showing respect by giving some form of advance notice is usually good enough.

This might seem like a lot to ask, but consider what all these situations have in common. By doing any of these things in the room, you are imposing your values and lifestyle on your roommate. You are deciding what your roommate will listen to, who they have to live with, and exactly when they have to do these things. You have decided that you are vested with the natural authority to make life decisions for your roommate! As far as an introvert is concerned, you might as well jump across the room, ransack their belongings, and piss all over their mattress.

If you persist with typical extrovert habits when you have an introverted roommate, you will needlessly make an enemy! An enemy who perceives that you have given up all rights to your personal living preferences and belongings. You will be accorded no respect because you never gave any. Your roommate will be watching for any weakness or means of forcing you out.

Your introverted roommate’s essential needs are very simple: one half of one room as their respected and safe domain. From the Subtle perspective, this is not only a reasonable demand, it seems cruel and miserly that someone who has the entire outside world on their side cannot be bothered to spare one 5×12 foot rectangle.

Other than that,
-Do not always give/expect greetings and farewells when leaving or arriving.
-Don’t impose your social expectations on your roommate.
-If in doubt whether it needs to be said, don’t say it.
-If you leave your roommate alone, your introverted roommate will happily reciprocate.
-IMPORTANT! DON’T disturb your introverted roomate if they are clearly concentrating on something unless it is very important.

Once you’ve shown basic respect, chances are, your Subtle roommate will grow comfortable and eventually actually approach you.
The key is that you cannot make control of the room into a social power struggle as extroverts naturally do. You have to respect your introvert roommate as an equal or no deal. Introverts operate according to tacit understandings and unseen contracts. What is most important does not need to be said because it is self evident from the nature of the situation.

Only when friction of association and social obligation are reduced to mutually acceptable levels are there grounds for friendly and harmonious co-existence.

“At work today, I was socializing with two extroverted co-workers. I wasn’t completely comfortable, but I was able to get a few words in every once in a while. Then, a third extrovert came up, and I found that whenever I wanted to say something one of the other girls beat me to it by one or two seconds. I started feeling extremely awkward, because I was just standing there and not contributing to the conversation.”

Full thread:

This forum poster described a phenomenon I’ve experienced very frequently. For one whom social interaction is competition for attention, one who enters the arena with other goals cannot possibly hope to compete. Those who talk at the competitive level are so saturated by Loud attention getting tactics that they don’t even notice someone who’s trying to talk normally any more. They’ve long forgotten that the main purpose of conversation is to convey meaningful information and have constructive discussions. The rat race has consumed them utterly.

Frustrated with being ignored, I resorted to a test while growing up to see if someone was worth my time. I would say something in a measured tone of voice at indoor volume. I would then monitor the response. Most of the time the eyes of the extrovert in question would remain glazed over with incomprehension, if indeed they were even aware of that I had been talking. They would quickly flit onto something they thought more stimulating. Appallingly few people passed this test and I would feel more alone than ever. But this test ultimately did help me find people who didn’t see people as advertising, who wanted more than shallow stimulation from conversation, and who wanted to be my allies, not my competitors.

The truth I have found is that most extroverts live amongst so much noise pollution that they quite simply can’t hear the spoken word until one keeps a sentence to no more than a few words, fires them out quickly, and puts great emphasis on all the stressed syllables. It seemed to me that to get a Loud person’s attention, I’d have to address them in much the same way as I’d address a pet dog. Such a realization was very discouraging indeed!

In my last post about Survival in the Void, one of my pieces of advice was to work out regularly and learn to listen to one’s body, to become familiar with its intricacies.

Touch sickness, the yearning sensation one gets after months of tactile neglect can be lessened and even eliminated by knowing one’s body on an intimate level.
On some level, such a practice is more than just physical. It is a life-affirming ritual much like sitting down to have a meal. It is a self-recognition of one’s own humanity and human needs.

One of the hallmarks of low self-esteem and a negative self-concept is a divorce of mind from the body. When one does not like oneself, the mind shies away from one’s body and its needs. There is an inherent separation that allows unmet requirements to fester until they can no longer be ignored.

Regularly using and stimulating the body is essential to breaching that separation from the self.
As a distance runner, I learned to distinguish mental barriers from true exhaustion, how to distinguish tendon and ligament pain that warns of injury from mere muscle soreness and minor aches, how to have an approximate idea of how many miles my feet had covered, how to gauge how much energy and water was left in my body, and how to be constantly aware of my biomechanics.

From this background in running, I added weightlifting and yoga techniques into my routine. I became acquainted with every muscle in my body and how to stimulate it through exercise. I can only vaguely remember what my body felt like and looked like before I started to develop an awareness. When one grows up with negative reinforcement from society, one tends to go into retreat, even from one’s own limbs.

I finally conquered my touch sickness when I learned how to give myself massages. Even a simple scalp rub worked wonders in dispelling feelings of physical loneliness, but growing up, I would never have thought to reach out and acknowledge myself and my needs in such a way. It was almost as though I had been hiding from corporeal self. Indeed, my body had itself been just a final barrier to hide behind.

In time, I learned how to soothe every tiny point of tension in my feet, in my neck and upper back, in my hands. As I experimented, I figured out how to stretch every one of my vertebrae as I lay on an improvised decline.
I am now capable of living almost indefinitely without touch from others if need be. I know the tricks of my physiology. Since I am keenly aware, there is never any chance for a problem to reach the point where it starts to get out of control and threatens mental stability.

Learning how to make the body self-sustaining through awareness results in a whole new level of independence. One is no longer ruled by loneliness and cravings. The ability of society to blackmail through threat of witholding human affection is removed. The way to a life of self-honesty is opened.

The coping tactics one develops just to survive another day eventually become their own reward. In time necessity matures into virtue, barest subsistence grows into a fulfilling lifestyle.

For one who begins life beneath the surface of the Main Stream of social conventions, there is the constant problem of Human Interaction Deficiency, a chronic source of pain that makes functioning in every day life ever harder. Living in a void apart from everyone else, especially when young, can mean seeing oneself as superfluous, irrelevant, insignificant, outcast, and rejected.
Death never seems far away because one lives as an invisible spirit. Death never seems anything particularly bad; it means an end to a troubled existence in which one already dwells in an underworld of sorts. As one who feels undesired and forgotten, one ceases to attach any particular meaning to their demise. Why should it matter so much?

As a young man high school, life for me was much as I have described. I seriously considered suicide on several occasions. When I thought it over I did so as much from measured consideration of my situation as much from personal hurt and agony. Because death itself felt so immediate, there was nothing dramatic about it in my mind.

Ultimately, I chose not to let go. More than anything else there was a defiance in me. It seemed that giving up would be a final acknowledgment that I was Incorrect just as all my social surroundings seemed to tell me. This could not be allowed. From this resolution arose ways of coping and survival. Ways that I wish there had been an elder outcast to show me rather than in desperation discover for myself.

-A regimen of physical exercise. It is highly relaxing and a way to get out of any mental rut. Physical exertion is a tremendous release.
Seriously pursuing exercise means learning to listen to one’s body. A well honed awareness of one’s body is critical to decreasing dependence on others.(this merits its own post)

-Spend time out of doors, learn to enjoy nature, fall in love with the non-human, extra-social world around you. In time, the social sphere seems abstract and tiny in comparison to the rest of the universe.

-Isolation is a chance to develop many talents and hobbies to a level of expertise that is a lifetime beyond one’s socially integrated contemporaries. Just as Catholic priests without commitments to a trade or a family were the scholarly class for centuries, one who lives in the extra-social void has the opportunity to cultivate an active mind to which boredom and ennui are alien concepts.

-Self induced orgasms help in reducing skin cravings. By itself, not enough to satisfy the need for non-sexual intimacy and touch.

-If there’s no one to speak to about your troubles, speak to yourself. If you don’t use your mouth or don’t have occasion to make facial expressions during the day, you’ll have a stale, cramped feeling in your facial muscles. You must create the occasion by speaking and emoting on your own. Singing to yourself is a good way of achieving this, it really helps break the Silence. Make some facial expressions in the mirror every now and then. Stay in practice.

-Pets are priceless. It’s no coincidence that lonely people are stereotypically surrounded by animals. Even if not an affectionate creature, nurturing any living thing, even a gold fish or a plant can make life better. The very presence of living things, especially in an otherwise sterile house or apartment is uplifting.

-During social deprivation one does well to stimulate their senses to compensate. One of my personal favorites is appreciating fine food and drink.

Introverts, those who are forced to live beneath the surface of the Main Stream, often find themselves lonely and isolated, though they may be living amongst countless millions of people. Even as they require human contact, they must also exercise caution to avoid notice and the social censure that must come with it.

Food, shelter, clothing are the usual requirements listed for a human being. Social interaction is a fourth one that seems to be ommitted.

One who has gone months at a time with limited human interaction understands that it is not conversation that one misses most but rather the need for human touch.
This writer knows this feeling all too well. My skin would begin to prickle and itch after the first few months. I would constantly have to stimulate my fingertips and all the most sensitive spots along my fingers with my fingernails. After more than half a year, I would feel a cold burning across every inch of my skin. This feeling produces an icy, aching longing that permeates one’s being. It’s not the sort of cold one can warm with blankets or hot showers. What sleep one can obtain when in such a state is no escape, one wakes exhausted and cold, knowing that the body has not truly rested or relaxed.

When in such a state, the slightest accidental brush of someone’s fingertip sends a flood of warmth throughout the body and desperate longing for more. The texture of every ripple and whorl of that fingertip lingers in one’s mind for minutes afterwards. The spot that was touched smolders with a pleasurable ache until it finally cools. In social situations, one must struggle to keep one’s composure, unable to acknowledge what good someone just did with a mere accidental touch. They would never understand. Worse, one could attract criticism or even punishment for behaving so strangely in public.

The introvert gradually learns to fulfill one need and then others while remaining beneath notice. In time, this becomes the preferred approach and from such practice grows a lifestyle and worldview that is alien to those who live on the Surface.
From this formative experience comes the introvert “desire to attain their needs without touching other people too deeply.”

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